1. Be visible.
2. Do not apologize
3. Be fit and focused on nutrition
4. Complete the damn MBA
5. Get a passport
6. Spend time with people that matter
7. Write a book
8. Go to a new country
9. Read 2 new books a month
10. Donate 10% of your wealth
11. Do not compromise on quality
12. Meditate 30 mins a day
13. Be kind
Silent Bleed
I look at you, and only see deceit and disappointment. I hope that once we are through, you'll be able to read this and know that I did love you, once.
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Story of Man-Woman
Man provides a divorce to wife in 1990. She was working, he didn't want her to. He wanted to marry someone else, at the advice of his sister.
He has a heart attack on his way out of the Kazi/lawyer's office.
Wife doesn't find out, and she takes care of him for 15 years until his death.
Man is grateful, is survived by wife and sister. The sister gets the property, and the wife is kicked out after a year of lawsuit. The wife dies of heartbreak.
Sister finds a stash of love letters that the wife wrote to her husband when he was in the hospital.
Man provides a divorce to wife in 1990. She was working, he didn't want her to. He wanted to marry someone else, at the advice of his sister.
He has a heart attack on his way out of the Kazi/lawyer's office.
Wife doesn't find out, and she takes care of him for 15 years until his death.
Man is grateful, is survived by wife and sister. The sister gets the property, and the wife is kicked out after a year of lawsuit. The wife dies of heartbreak.
Sister finds a stash of love letters that the wife wrote to her husband when he was in the hospital.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Breakups: The Woody Allen Way
If Woody Allen looked at the photos of you and Ashif, he would first remark, at least you used condoms. The photos show a yellow condom, the brand I not know of.
And that's not all. In retrospect, they all make funny comic set ups. You always picked memorable dates to screw up.
Feb 14, 2008: Having a valentines day conversation about Egypt, and finding explicit google chat conversations between you and Shakib.
Month 08, 2008: Right before you were flying out to Lashkar Gah, an inadvertent text message thanking Parwiz for coming over and allowing you to perform a blow job, and asking him to bring a condom next time. Then no explanation for two days.
April 2009: Discovering pictures of Sibghat K on your computer in KL, and realizing that it never really stopped.
July 2010: Discovering pictures of Shahed standing on the new carpet bought from Aarong in his underwear
August 08, 2010: Coming home to surprise you for our 3rd anniversary, and find you and Nayem coming out of the elevator with a wet towel. Then you denying it 20 minute later. Having to go to dinner at SteakHouse with our friends and you gushing over what a great run we've had.
August 09, 2010: Bringing 6 paintings to the house, as if nothing happened. The same week having to endure dinner at Nab's and being scolded by her that I am being a killjoy. You emailing Nab that you don't understand why I'm behaving this way. Her replying that you've done so much sacrifice to be with me that I "should get over it"
September 2010: You admitting that you did in fact sleep with Nayem, and Shahed, and that it is my fault for being an unresponsive partner. You sleeping with Dipu after Eid, lying to me about it, then chatting on MSN messenger about how you feel rushed about doing it. Then denying it, then making him send FB message, etc.
Not to mention that having webcam sessions with someone, then humiliating me by suggesting that I perform acts on camera to someone I don't know. I ended up doing it.
October 2010: Night before RED party, admitting that there's more transgression. Admitting at RED party, that you've had Raphael.
Did I leave anything out?
And that's not all. In retrospect, they all make funny comic set ups. You always picked memorable dates to screw up.
Feb 14, 2008: Having a valentines day conversation about Egypt, and finding explicit google chat conversations between you and Shakib.
Month 08, 2008: Right before you were flying out to Lashkar Gah, an inadvertent text message thanking Parwiz for coming over and allowing you to perform a blow job, and asking him to bring a condom next time. Then no explanation for two days.
April 2009: Discovering pictures of Sibghat K on your computer in KL, and realizing that it never really stopped.
July 2010: Discovering pictures of Shahed standing on the new carpet bought from Aarong in his underwear
August 08, 2010: Coming home to surprise you for our 3rd anniversary, and find you and Nayem coming out of the elevator with a wet towel. Then you denying it 20 minute later. Having to go to dinner at SteakHouse with our friends and you gushing over what a great run we've had.
August 09, 2010: Bringing 6 paintings to the house, as if nothing happened. The same week having to endure dinner at Nab's and being scolded by her that I am being a killjoy. You emailing Nab that you don't understand why I'm behaving this way. Her replying that you've done so much sacrifice to be with me that I "should get over it"
September 2010: You admitting that you did in fact sleep with Nayem, and Shahed, and that it is my fault for being an unresponsive partner. You sleeping with Dipu after Eid, lying to me about it, then chatting on MSN messenger about how you feel rushed about doing it. Then denying it, then making him send FB message, etc.
Not to mention that having webcam sessions with someone, then humiliating me by suggesting that I perform acts on camera to someone I don't know. I ended up doing it.
October 2010: Night before RED party, admitting that there's more transgression. Admitting at RED party, that you've had Raphael.
Did I leave anything out?
In the beginning
Here's what happened. I found the pictures you took with Ashif. They were explicit, otherwise I would have posted them on this blog.
I saw the photos, sat in silence for about 5 minutes, went to my room, held a pillow against my mouth to stifle any noise, removed the pillow, drank a glass of water, and went into a blur for the rest of the day. I don't know what happened, but at night, I was lying on the bed staring at the computer screen, and wondered what I have done to deserve this pain and humiliation.
This blog is for you. I feel that having conversations with you on this is unproductive, it only worsens our relationship. I want to enjoy whatever days we have left in peace.
So, know that I loved you, and maybe love you enough to keep on going.
I saw the photos, sat in silence for about 5 minutes, went to my room, held a pillow against my mouth to stifle any noise, removed the pillow, drank a glass of water, and went into a blur for the rest of the day. I don't know what happened, but at night, I was lying on the bed staring at the computer screen, and wondered what I have done to deserve this pain and humiliation.
This blog is for you. I feel that having conversations with you on this is unproductive, it only worsens our relationship. I want to enjoy whatever days we have left in peace.
So, know that I loved you, and maybe love you enough to keep on going.
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