Here's what happened. I found the pictures you took with Ashif. They were explicit, otherwise I would have posted them on this blog.
I saw the photos, sat in silence for about 5 minutes, went to my room, held a pillow against my mouth to stifle any noise, removed the pillow, drank a glass of water, and went into a blur for the rest of the day. I don't know what happened, but at night, I was lying on the bed staring at the computer screen, and wondered what I have done to deserve this pain and humiliation.
This blog is for you. I feel that having conversations with you on this is unproductive, it only worsens our relationship. I want to enjoy whatever days we have left in peace.
So, know that I loved you, and maybe love you enough to keep on going.
